I think I need to study more often.

I'm retaking Chemistry 111 and 112 this summer, at the community college I went to a little bit ago. The drive sucks, but it gives me time to see the mister during the week, rather than driving back to Mt. P right away. I also use the class time for knitting, reading comic books, and real books too. Tall Guy/Boyfriend got me American Gods, since I'm a fan of Stardust and Eternals (Neil Gaiman books), so I've been working away at that.

Stupid Ex still texts me quite often, and its weird. I don't know when the last time I saw him and didn't do something I would regret was, so these messages are quite weird. For example, "and i know what i said, but would it be bad to say that i miss you, and that i still think about you?" is a bit weird, he's got a girlfriend (the cow) that he cheats on with me, and will openly admit that the sex sucks, she's pushing him waaaaaay too hard into a relationship, and she has mom boobs and mom hair. He slept with me, they broke up, he sleeps with me again, they get back together, and he keeps cheating on her. Now, I don't know a lot about relationships, but I don't think theirs is working, at all. I don't know, maybe this girl really is that fucking stupid.

One of my best friends from high school had a bonfire, which I took TG to, and SE called during. Weird. A, who had the bonfire, is getting married next summer to a kind of geeky, goofy guy. I guess I'm happy for her, if she's happy. It just really feels like all of my friends are rushing into things now, and I'm starting over again. I've known D even longer than A, and she's been with the same guy for five years- they don't live together yet, but she knows how many kids she wants. There's just something kind of off about that- she isn't even 20 yet. But I have persuaded her to start going to knitting group with me, and I might try and see if she'll try sock knitting. More young people need to do this, most definitely.

Boys...

Why do they have to be so confusing?

I'm talking to Stupid Ex again, because he keeps talking to me. Every time I get online, he IM's me. He's called me. He's letting me borrow comics again. Good enough guy, I suppose, but he knows why I didn't want to talk to him, and continues to be a thorn in my side. I'm pretty thoroughly over him though- but I miss the sex. God, do I miss the sex.

Tall Guy's truck got broken into last night, and now he's being all closed and quiet. We've been having a good time though. I like that I can goof around with him, and we don't handle each other with kid gloves. Sure, I've got some bruises, but they'll go away and I had fun getting them. He's confusing too, though. Saying that I'm beautiful is a huge complement, coming from him, but following up with "I feel bad saying it though" doesn't make me feel good. Either does saying "I love you" followed by "Fuck, I told myself I wasn't going to say that." He did get me an Iron Man slurpee cup though, which I was excited by.

Greek Boy and I have a date when he gets back from Florida. TG is ok with this, because "He won't make you feel like I do." :D I'm falling for this guy, harder than I want to.

In other news, school is going well except for Organic Chemistry. I have a test tomorrow in Astronomy, and I made cupcakes for my Astronomy Lab. Gave one to TG, then remembered that a.) I use mayonnaise as an egg replacement, and b.) he really, really hates mayonnaise. The cupcakes fell, but they're incredibly moist, and I made a buttercream frosting for them that turned out pretty delicious. I did superglue my hand fixing the mixer though.